I wish you would have introduced yourself earlier in my life. Perhaps you tried and I turned a cold shoulder because I was trying to run...

https://play.google.com/store/books/details?id=sPl8pKYIMh0C I just finished reading this incredibly honest and open book. It’s the fourth...

Last night, my husband and I actually had a date. For the first time in a very long time, I felt good enough to go out, so our boys were...

Tonight instead of writing a long post, I was overtaken with emotion and had this poem come to me. I dedicate this poem to my dear...

Today as I waited to check in at my MD’s office, John Lennon began singing overhead, “People say I’m crazy, doin what I’m doin, Well they...

This morning I woke with one predominant feeling: I am alone. Alone, alone, alone. I feel I’ve exhausted all my lifelines except for one,...

Over the past two days I have had several people tell me they miss the “bubbly old Lydia” and can’t wait until I feel better. What they...

I wouldn’t wish my brain on my worst enemy. That was my repeated thought tonight on the way to my counselor’s office. It never shuts down...

Last night I wanted to feel like a “normal” person, after the day I had and the self-loathing I inflicted upon myself, I needed a break...

I attempted to look up quotes with regard to self-loathing this morning because I wanted to find one that would apply to this post....

The gifts are unwrapped and piled neatly under my tree, some completely untouched. I sit in my living room, staring at the tree, which is...

Here’s a happy thought, there’s less than 12 hours left to this day. I must admit I enjoyed watching my children unwrap their gifts and...

I’ve always been a vivid dreamer. My dreams are in color. People talk. I see faces and what people are wearing, and when I wake in the...

Today, the Energizer Bunny fizzled out, like a battery operated window candle that had been left on continuously for a few days. Perhaps...

Ok, so yesterday, I was in such a deep slump. I slept 18 hours because not only was I depressed, but I also was suffering with an insane...

It was a simple text, “How are you?” I wish I could answer. I’m just at a loss anymore as to how I am supposed to answer.  Certain...

In an effort to figure out what the hell happened to me this October, I decided to start ransacking my basement and attic for all my old...

Yesterday was a big day at Eagles Stadium, and I was there in the midst of the chaos and chants, amongst all those drinking and rallying,...

In June of 1995, I had my first exposure to a mental health ward.  When I was 23 years old, I ended up committing myself to a locked...

For someone who feels things so deeply, whether love, pain, anguish, disgust, anger or hatred, there is nothing more unnatural than...